I can't stay okay.
I couldn't even if I tried.
I promised you all I'd come back once in a while to visit, and that only.
But as soon as I reactivated my account everybody seems to want me to stay?
If you want me to stay now then why the fuck didn't you want me to stay when I was there before?
It's too late now okay, I have to move on or else I'll just be at square one the rest of my life.
Let me move on, please, if you actually 'care'.
I'm thinking of possibly deactivating again because I might have to, recently I've gotten much worse than usual and the thing is; nobody even knows, nobody. What's even worse is that when I am back here again, I get the constant feeling of guilt for not being there for you all.
*I do not enjoy role playing anymore
*I have grown up
*I have found more interests
*I have quite a busy social life now
*I have much more important things to focus on
*I do not want to be involved in all this joining clans stuff when I'm not even staying
*I'm in the middle of my exams at the moment and they are super important
*I'm stressed enough
*I have suicidal friends that I constantly help (one being my boyfriend:c)
*I have not improved in getting better that much at all
*I've already chosen my options and I will be doing them next year
*I have to have even more exams in the up coming year
*I'm too old for this tbh
*Apart from how I feel my life is pretty great right now
And a lot more but I'm not exactly going to go on 5ever
And btw don't get all bitchy and defensive because all of this does not mean that I don't love you all. I just can't be here anymore, okay?
Oh and it's Jaime Preciado's birthday today and I love him and he is in my fave band (pierce the veil), just wanna thank him and the rest of the band for making me happy when nobody else could c: ily but I love vic more oopS c;
Yep but love yous, bye for now.